I am doing this 30 day challenge because it’s just one i came across, but the reason why im doing these challenges in general is to help me remain active with my tumblr. When i first made an account a while ago, i only used it for a few days and then i forgot about it even tho back then there was plenty to vent about or share. But tumblr is a healthy release for me, especially when im no good for sticking up for myself. I know i can always use the “write a letter to someone but dont send it” method. I just write it out in here, and then after a little delete it.
Plus, these challenges are helpful for self-reflection.
I’m writing to you. Of all the things, i never could have said.
And It’s the truth.
It’s the letter, you’re burning from me.
Of all the things you never wanted to hear.
I don’t know what i am trying to say.
Stencil in your heart,
Into anothers hands and you’re saying…nothing at all.
I don’t know what I’m trying to say. Stencil in your heart, Into anothers hands and you say it best…my heart your hands.
Can you feel it burn? Burn inside our heart. Close your eyes and think of me. I’m taking back everything. I can’t forget your face. I can’t forget what you’ve said. I can’t erase the memories, It’s like running from a ghost. I can’t forget your face. I can’t forget the things you’ve said.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Well, i’d like to think that i’m different, but i know everyone is. So it’s really hard to come up with ONE thing that is completely different from the entire world. I cant say im short, cause a lot of people are, even if most my friends arent. I cant say i have freckles, because all of ireland does as well.
I guess what makes me different from a majority of america is, no matter how rude, cruel, or mean someone can be to me, i still extend all kindness and compassion towards them.
I guess what makes me difference is, i have a big conscience.
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Wow, well…right now i can see myself being with Jim in the future. I mean we get along great, have the pros and cons that are normally had in relationships. We just need to remain working hard to not let things fall apart.
But a while ago, the man i saw myself marrying..was Aaron. It’s hurtful, to see how things between someone you love so dearly change. I ask myself everyday how he could say he loved me and then go and do the things he did. I find myself making excuses for his actions and denying the truth.
But even after everything, there are some moments where i almost feel that being with him again is inevitable.
If that were the day, i would genuinely be afraid.
[12/15/10 12:25:06 AM] Ryan Carey: you see, i find you to be one of the strongest people i know(i dont care if you believe me or not), You have the heart of 10 lions, the attitude of a butterfly and the grace of a mantis.
you tell people whats on your mind and how you feel and never in a million years could that change. Your a tough chick youve been chewed up and spit out only to get back up again with a scratch or two but comming out better for it. You learn your lessons especially the hard ones and when you learn them you spend so much time figuring them out completly that it haunts you.
You have the passion for art and beauty that most girls dream of, what you do with a camera others can do only in their imaginations and when they try imagining just that its only there for less than a second. You capture the world for what it is and how you see it.
You claim you wish you were made of stone or had thicker skin and even that you wouldnt bleed when cut. But to mean without those characteristics you wouldnt be a human…but a goddess of the fairest quality.
It’s amazing in how such short time, someone so young has seen so much in me. Especially since we have only known each other for about a month now. This kid, i can tell, will always be here for me and is a very true friend. He’s a genuine guy in the hardcore scene and you dont really find those anymore. I hope i can be as much to him as he is to me because i will never be able to repay the favor to him for everything he has done for me. I can honestly say that i love this kid. I tell a lot of my friends that i love them, and i do, but i love Ryan in a different way. Almost the way that i love Kyle or Daniel. I love Ryan as if i have been friends with him for 6 years and have walked thru hell next to him like i have done with Kyle or Daniel. I do love this kid. And i will do my best to be as good a friend to him as he is to me. <3
It’s really a wonder that I haven’t dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart.
If you find something in life you hate, try to cope with it. Once you begin to cope with it, you may realize it’s not that bad. Once you realize it’s not that bad, you may find you like it! Once you find you like it, you may begin to love it! Once you begin to love, it you may never forget it again! But if this happens remember that if you never gave it a chance in the beginning, you may have lost the chance of a lifetime.
Day 17: Someone who you would want to trade lives with for a day and why.
I would like to trade lives with someone who has their life together, preferrably someone who is a photographer and works for a company or has their own studio. I just kind to want to know the feeling of actually having success in the art department and i wanna feel the sensations of fashion photography. Portraiture, weddings, parties, events.
I wanna live a day in a professional photographer’s shoes.
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Im not exactly sure how i found out about it, but i am pretty sure Jes and I both started ours around the same time.
Im pretty sure one of my friends just told me how they had one and so i should make one. I didn’t use it for a while, but then my friend Sam reminded me how good it was to be able to just vent, write, and express without need to worry and so i started writing in it again.